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I haven't felt much like writing the past few days. This virus I have is really wiping me out. I've had a fever and chills as well as nausea etc.... However, my ob-gyn says this is not effecting the baby and so I feel relieved to know that.
I am finding it difficult to stay awake right now so I am journaling in the hopes that it will help me pass the time until I can go home. Just under 4 hours still to go.
I laid my head down on my desk just to rest my eyes and I think I fell asleep for a moment or two. I really try to avoid that at work. I have yet to have my "lunch" break and am considering the possibility of taking that time to lay my head down again. With this virus I have pretty much lost my appetite so I don't know that I will want to eat. I know I have to eat though for the sake of the baby. I may not get hungry but she does.
I had my third ob-gyn appointment this past week and everything seems to be coming along nicely. The baby is healthy and doing well. I feel her moving around a lot now. I am glad for that since I have been praying for an active child. On a documentary I had seen about the development of the fetus it was said that the more active a baby is in the womb the better that child's muscle tone at birth.
The ultrasound technician puts my estimated due date at Feb. 16 and my ob-gyn puts the estimated due date at Feb. 23. I have decided to split the difference and state the due date is to be Feb. 19 1/2 and the baby will be born at noon that day. I am 5'7" and the father is 6'2" so I am not expecting a petite little thing but apparently bigger babies tend to be born later, first children in particular. I am hoping SweetPea will break that trend.
I am praying for a normal healthy baby but truth be told I've been praying that she wouldn't be that big. I'd be quite content with 7 lbs or so. I have to admit to a lot of trepidation when I think about labour and the thought of an episiotomy makes me cringe! I am hoping for natural childbirth but am keeping the option of an epidural open as well.
I had a meeting today with the director of the call centre where I work and he was asking about the due date. He mentioned something about running a pool guessing when the baby is due. I am totally fine with that as long as SweetPea gets half the pool.
Speaking of pools I think I find myself "craving" swimming. I knew it was possible to crave certain foods when pregnant (I still crave fresh pineapple) but I didn't know it could also become a craving for certain activities. I want so much to feel the coolness of the water as it slips over my shoulders as I swim laps.
This past Friday I went to a city wide prayer meeting and as part of the welcome the man doing the announcements said something about welcoming every soul here. When he said that I realized in some ways that I am a "two-fer" in the soul department right now. Two people, two souls, within one body at the moment. Then the magnitude of that began to sink in as I realized that not only do I have a separate individual developing within me right now but there is also her immortal soul housed within me as well until she is born. The more I thought about it the more humbled I felt. I still don't really have the words to express the thoughts and feelings that went through me as I considered this.
I am too tired to write anything more -- at least not if I want to retain at least a semblance of coherence.
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