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I want to be beautiful
And make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
What I am is quite enough
I just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
--Bethany Dillon, Beautiful
I read that poem and it tore at my heart as I think it appeals to what practically every woman wants. I know as of late I have felt anything but beautiful. I know that the majority of the weight I have gained has been from the pregnancy, but I still feel awkward and large and unattractive. The King James Version of the Old Testament has a term that pretty much fits how I am feeling of late and that is "sea cow".
It is nice to think in a couple of months my body will be mine again -- well inhabited by me alone. I know that SweetPea will have a claim on me for the rest of my life.
As my due date becomes closer and closer I keep thinking more and more about what it is to be a mother. I thank God for my Mom and I hope that I can do even half as good of a job as she has done. It is funny it is not until one is older that one realizes all the sacrifices made for one and becomes truly grateful for it.
My prayer continues to be a godly and good mother for my little girl.
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